Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Live in the moment. plan for the future. reflect on the positive things in your past; rehearse the successes, Learn from and forget the 'failures' then come back and enjoy the moment. The moment is all we have. Find our path, reach for our goals and trust in our faculties to get us where we are going and enjoy the journey. Life is an amazing gift. Everyone has their own path. You can put up road signs and try to help people but in the end its their choice to follow them or not. The only reality you control is your own. You can make a heaven out of hell and a hell out of heaven. Everything that happens to you is only relatively important, therefore it is actually unimportant, relatively. You need the city to enjoy the woods and you need the woods to enjoy the city. The winter makes the summer that much better and in the end you can enjoy any type of weather.
I think the goal is to get as close to 100% real as you can. Real to yourself. Not let anyones opinions influance your actions. And im not talking only about the obvious spoken opinions and scarscaticstic remarks but the more subtle things like negative body language, under the breath pffs, or even another persons feelings of being uncomfortable by what your doing causing you to feel the need to act differently. You can feel the uncomfert they dont have to do anything. even driving close behind someone will give them the feeling that their doing something wrong, that they should switch lanes or drive faster. On this quest to find out what it is that we enjoy, what kinda things we truly find super tight we will get haters. Haters hate because they see something they wish they were and do what they can do hold you back, keep you normal, just like them so they can remain comfortable. I also feel like this is more of a male game and cannot yet address how females act toward each other. Evolutionary it makes sense. The person who remains the least reactive is the alpha male. The alpha male gets what ever the fuck he wants. people have been competing for millions of years to climb the ranks and become the alpha male, they pass tests and deal with haters. the ones who rise to the top are the best haters of them all. the ones who put down and styfolded the other people into beta. These people have had time to spread their genes and their behavior from generation to generation for millions of years. and now its getting to a point where its all unnecessary. We have abundance. We no longer need to compete for hierarchy but most people let their emotions dictate their beliefs and behaviors and cannot see that logically they are doing themselves and the world around them more harm than good. They fail to realize that as long as they are comparing themselves to others they will always feel inferior to someone else in some way. Everyone has their own shit weather it be lazy shit, hater shit, insecure shit, , jealous shit, lire shit, dishonest shit, or truthful shit, real shit, love it shit, happiness shit, learner shit, success shit... its all shit to someone and everyone has their own brand. and usually its the man who farted who is the only one who doesn't mind.
This blog is going to be a tool to express myself and to test my self expression. I will attempt to put my thoughts out into the world for people to accept and reject as they see fit. knowing that everyone has their own shit, i will challenge myself to remain impartial to any negative or positive opinion. This is for me. At this point in my life i feel like people can make a heaven out of hell and a hell out of heaven. peoples outside world is a reflection of their inside world. this is a place for me to jot down my thoughts about what that means to me. My thoughts on life. What ive learned what im figuring out. Ideas i feel are interesting. My attempt at a new reality to shift away from the herd mentality. I dont really care about spelling and grammar, thats just another thing to styfold (inhibit? bog down? kill?) my style. Yeah these little red underlines so inconveniently let me spell good if i choose to so ill see what what happens in the mud pit when the mud turns to shit. Your defined in life by the actions you take and i think so many people are scared to be defined that they dont take action. hopeing itll work out. hopeing there will be another tv show to watch, another quick gratification they can grab to delay any true meaning of the experiance they were blessed with. We are the universe becoming aware of itself. We are here for such a short amount of time every minute you spend not being happy is a minute you wasted. Ive wreseled with this idea for some time because it seems contradictory to leading a successful life in the long term. But im beggining to realize that through living in the moment, realizing everyone has their own shit (negitive shit, happy shit, mean shit, nice shit, dorky shit, cool shit.) and expressing yourself with out letting anything outside influance you. You will be on your path. And each day you will get closer to your goals and your goals will give you a momentum to strong to stop. I have started viewing all the negative shit and outside circumstances i cannot control as a challenge to overcome. I live and gain exp with each new thing i face and concur. There is no such thing as failure. You live and learn. You either succeed or get closer to success. Life is an amazing place. With amazing gifts. and its the grapes who live through the shade that make the best wine. reality isnt real, and i need to make my seccond ever bowl of oatmeal. Late night at the bars. Don't have class till 3:00. I have some homework to catch up on and a new phone to get. Blog. You are super tight. Everyone is going to have a different interpretation of this blog and i'm going to attempt to just express myself with out thinking about how another person will interpret my expression. This will be a challenge at times but that'll only lead to that good old tasty fine wine.