Kaleidoscope Reality

Reality behind our senses, judgments, attachments, thoughts, feelings, beliefs, ect are an Infinite kaleidoscope of raw data, a fractal geometry. A sort of ink blot test that we mold into the reality we see with our consciousness. The level of our experiences mimic the level of our consciousness.

Drugs like DMT rip away the filter we use to view reality and shows the true nature behind the distortion of our mind allowing us to receive information we cant receive normally.

This truth of reality that DMT lets you be spectator to is reason we are able to create our environment with our minds (like so many spiritual teachings suggest). What we see on the outside, the laws we live by, EVERY experience we have is a direct interpretation of (your) consciousness. It puts all this information together into a story about where you are in the space and time.

Your experience is a reflection of the level or wave length of energy your consciousness is on.

The mind doesn't interpret reality. Rather reality is an interpretation (reflection) of the mind.

Focus on what you want to expand.

As Within, So Without. Literally.



See video for more on DMT:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iTZftPWbWj8&feature=player_embedded#at=94

30-Day trials

I have found that 30-Day trials are an amazing way to take action on and experience some of infinite amount of different ways to live your life. I just completed a combined 30-day meditation trial and vegetarian trial. Both were amazing experiences and Ive now established habits that will continue will into the future. Being a vegetarian has really made me look at what i put into my body. I have been eating a lot healthier and it shows in both my energy level and the way I feel. It has also been a great experience to try some of the foods i wasn't as open to before. Usually when i go to a restaurant i over look the vegetarian choices because there are so many amazing meat choices to try that i don't even think about it. Through this trial i have experiences some pretty amazing menu items i wouldn't have necessarily given a chance before. I didn't really have that hard of a time giving up meat. I ate a lot of salads and made a ton of different vegetarian pizzas. It was cool to see how much flavor you could get with out any meat. There were only a couple days where I really craved a turkey sandwich or a slice of peperoni pizza. I will continue to stick to a mostly vegetarian diet in the future but ill still eat meat when i feel like it. I'm starting to get into nutrition more and more and am becoming more conscious of the down sides to consuming meat.
The meditation part of the trial has and will have a profound effect on my life. It has helped me calm my inner voice down more than anything else i have ever done. It has brought me to a whole new level of awareness. At first it was difficult to quiet my mind and find silence but now it has become a lot easier. I cant start to see the silent power i have inside of me. I am a lot less jittery with unnecessary movements. I can sit and focus in class. I feel a lot more calm. Ive gotten way more in touch with my instincts and the things my subconscious is telling me. Ive even taken steps in being present in conversation, where i just wait to talk and don't have a line of thoughts coming in as what to say next, what i think about this and that, how i can add to the conversation, what the person is going to think. I just wait and trust myself to say what i need to say when i need to say it. I didn't even notice i had all this mumbo jumbo going on in the background until i was free of it. Its quite amazing. Over all the trial has proven itself as an invaluable way to start new habits and try out different perspectives of life.

Today I start a new trial. Nothing big but I have a lot of book marks that I've accumulated and been meaning to read so I am going to read 2+ articles or bookmarked links each day for 30 days. Much of the articles coming from Steve Pavlina's blog. He has a lot of amazing things to say. From there we'll see were inspiration leads me.

Living in sync with who I am

I had a pretty powerful realization. I love philosophy. I'm currently beginning my second semester of nursing class. I'm not necessarily interested in nursing. This leads to a lot of things. I don't necessarily feel like interacting and connecting with most of the people that my current path has surrounded me with. Some of the people in my class are great. But for the most part its pretty blah. Some of the class content is semi interesting. but for the most part i don't really care. This makes me want to read other stuff in class. There was a girl in my class today who said she loves coming to class. She got there 45 minutes early. Shes engaged in the content. That is how you will feel when you are on your path. She will make an amazing nurse. Its not me. I feel that way when I'm learning about philosophy. When I'm learning how people think and how their thoughts affect their reality. I like thinking deeeeeep. I need to change something. I had a gap in the nursing classes for philosophy 101. This feels unbelievably amazing. The universe supports me. This is my path. I need to listen to my procrastination. I need to go after what I want. This is how I can live to my full potential. I am eternally grateful.

You don't have to have 2 lives. You can find out how to live a singular focused one. All my out of class reading should run congruent to my in class reading. If i find myself out of class, never even thinking of class. THEN I'M IN THE WRONG FUCKING MAJOR! I give myself excuses, like 'nursing is exactly what i needed to become a whole person' And I really believe this is true. I don't regret how far i came in nursing. I wouldn't want to take any of that away. But I know that its not what I'm interested in. I didn't get into philosophy or psychology originally because i couldn't see any opportunity for making money doing it. 2 thing. There's way more important things that making money. Like LOVING YOUR LIFE! and 2 If I'm loving my life, my drive and will to give and expand will bring more money to me than i can even imagine. Or exactly as much as I can imagine. Which is irrelevant. Because I LOVE MY LIFE!

Well, now i have some things to mull over. I'm secure right now. I can stay on this path and add philosophy in as i go along. Half assing it. Take some classes on top of nursing when i can. Use what i am learning in nursing to supplement my real passion. Maybe ill get a great perspective from becoming a nursing and interacting with so many sick people. If i drop out and pursue philosophy who's to say i wont lose interest. Maybe I'm only interested so hard because it distracts me from alignment. Maybe high school has reinforced nonalignment so much that i am addicted to it. No matter what ill always have one thing I'm resisting which i need in order to drive the interest in the other thing. I don't believe I have to live with this in-congruency. I think its a socially defined norm. I think its bull shit. Or i could drop out of nursing. I could get a job and start my real life, perusing philosophy when i can and supplementing it with what ever career i can find. This doesn't feel right. I believe this will still lead to nonalignment. No matter what i think society favors people with credentials. Going to school for something I love would cause me to get amazing grades. And probably go on to get my doctorate. Because I I I I I I want to. Because i want to pursue knowledge. Because I can live up to my full potential. And as i specialize and grow with my passion money will come into alignment. Ive already thought of so many ways to make an income that I'm confident that I will have no problem making any amount of money i set my sites on. (I still cant get away from money as my obstacle, in time.) Short term - Will my loan transfer if i switch degrees? Will I love my classes? Will I be able to pay for housing and living expenses for another 2 years? I already made the first step. Taking philosophy 101. Well see where the rest takes me. Maybe ill get my nursing degree and work in something i don't love for 4 years to pay back my loans. Maybe a business or income source will pop up on the side allowing me to be free of all this and able to pursue whats truly fulfilling to me. maybe i wont like my philosophy class and what i love has yet to be reviled to me. All i know is its all going to work out perfectly :) And I'm excited about the future. I love life. I love knowledge. And i love YOU!

Deep Brain HEar IT!

Obviously the movie inception is a reflection of what reality really is subtly packaged under the cloak of entertainment. So taking into account this new para-dime of reality that this movie explores I conclude that the increased processing power of our inner mind hears music in a much different way than our ears perceive it. Here is a Justin Biebz song slowed down 800% to give you a gimps of how your deepest mind perceives music. http://soundcloud.com/shamantis/j-biebz-u-smile-800-slower

The inner mind operates so quickly that it slows down its perception to the point that it is able to read the energy frequency of the music coming in. This is why happy music makes you feel good. Even if you don't know the words. Your mind is jiving with the energy frequency and getting in tune with the level the music is on.

Now I'll be going through my Disney collection to find the movie that explains how we pick up on each others energy and vibes so well. The wisdom is in there somewhere.

Your Interpretations Determine Your Circumstances

Anything you see in someone else you have in yourself. Any part of them you reject is a part you haven’t fully accepted in yourself. The way you are interpreting or judging another person’s actions is only your projection of how they are acting. It does it define how they are actually acting. You make up your reality by your interpretations of reality and then you respond to those interpretations rather than to actual ‘reality.’ Your response then reinforces the reality you are responding to. If you respond like the person was being mean and nasty, your response will make them mean and nasty. If you respond like they were joking and being nice then your smile will make them want to continue joking and being nice.
What you focus on is what you will see (This has to do with your brains reticular activating system). Everyone and everything are kind of like Rorschach tests in the way that a person will always have both negative and positive qualities with negative and positive ways to view them. What you choose to focus on and the way you choose to interpret what you see determines how you will respond. Your response further reinforces your interpretation. Your projected interpretation becomes reality, reality becomes your projection. If you think all people are bad and out to get you, you will see the expressions of them that reinforce that belief and ignore many of the things that are expressed in them that would support the opposite belief that all people are trying to help and support you. So in that way your interpretation of the person’s behavior is more a reflection of who you are than who they are. From this you can see that your beliefs have a profound effect on your external reality. If you want to change your external reality, you must change your beliefs. Adopting beliefs like; the universe is out to help and support you and everything that happens good and bad is exactly what you needed to become the person you want to become(Figure out who you want to become!) and, reality is all in your mind and you are in 100% control of your external circumstances are ways to empower you to leading a happier more fulling life.

Focus the beam

Ive feel like Ive been pretty stagnant lately. Like i know what i need to do and know the path i need to start walking and the daily habits i need to get into in order to live to my highest potential but there's this constant voice in my head telling me it's OK to do whats easy. Its ok to sleep in and relax. But my belief that i need to work to achieve makes me feel the best when I'm striving to achieve a goal. I stop judging people and i just enjoy the world around me. I worry that i have been starting to many small projects and reading so many different books as a way to distract myself from finishing any of them. Maybe its a good things to get a ton of projects together in the direction of the larger project so that i can grow that much faster and when i have an obstacle in one area it will allow me to focus on something else until a path is found around that obstacle. I think i am at a point where i have the foundation laid. I have the blueprint of what i want to do basically set up. I have the understanding of the mindset needed to complete the project but not quite the full confidence in that mindset. I still have doubts. I have the vision to make the project sweet. I have the drive to see the project to completion and now all there is to do is drop all the minor distractions and do my work. My work needs to be the primary focus. around that enjoying peoples company, pursuing life experiences and reading to enhance my knowledge can compliment my primary purpose but i must not focus my beam of intent as to not be distracted by the secondary things that can be better left to the times i am resting from my primary purpose. Today i have a choice between going up north with friends and having fun this weekend at the cost of being pissed at myself for being lazy or I can go to hockey tonight, skip going up north and spend all Saturday learning how to make websites so i can bring my ideas to the world. But if i kept my intention and went up north would someone who already knows how to make websites be brought into my reality and the same outcome achieved? In this way does it matter if i stress myself to work or if i just live life to the fullest. Hopefully Steve Pavlinas current 30 day trial will shed some light on this predicament. For now I'm going to choose work because i do not yet have full trust in my powers of manifestation. I know that if i procrastinate on working out that i will get fat and feel shitty. Why would it be any different if i procrastinate on working.

BARTZ....OUT

Ping Pong

How you think somebody is going to think about something, Is how they are going to think about it. If you do something 'weird' and you think someone is going to think its weird then that person will think its weird, you will project your thoughts on how to think about it into their state. If you deep down believe that they will think its tight as hell then they will feel that think its tight as hell. You have control. Truly believing that what you do is going to perceived the same way you perceive it and not misinterpreted the ways you might feel like it could be misinterpreted is the hard part. Damn, I hope that didn't get misinterpreted.

Living in the moment is huge. once you realize that you can trust yourself and not have an outcome dependence on anything that happens you can start to view the things that happen to you as the exact things you needed to happen to you in order to grow to the next level. Or maybe that stems only from my desire to grow to the next level. And sense i have that desire all the things in my life that happen to me result in me perpetuating that desire. If someone has the desire to feel miserable then all the things that happen to them are going to perpetuate that desire. They will all make them feel miserable in the same way that they make me feel like i used them to evolve to the next level.

What you think you are capable of is exactly what your capable of. If you are learning to juggle it will be very hard to do 100 juggles with 4 pins in a row on the first try. You don't really believe you are capable of juggling 100 times in a row on the first try. It takes practice to get to 100 throw. What is practice? Its proving to yourself you are capable of doing 100 juggles in a row. And that starts with proving to yourself you are capable of doing 2 juggles in a row and then 3. and for the quick learner it means pushing yourself and having confidence that you can do 2 in a row then 10 in a row.

A blog is me writing a note to myself. But not only to myself to all of the selves of me out in the world that are able to find it. All the selves out there that are at the same place as me. and i can thank the selves of me before me who are writing to all their other selves giving them guidance. Each little projection of me is out there for me to interpret in the way i see fit. The way my consciousness sees fit. My consciousness creates everything and everyone in my world as a vibration of my inner most beliefs. Where do these beliefs come from? Are they deep down socially conditioned things, but then social conditioning itself must come from your belief. Where do you formulate your first beliefs? Are fist beliefs an illusion in the same way that past and future are illusions and the only thing that's real is the now? Where do we get things in the now? Where does everything i have now, like this tea come from? Must have been a previous now that was nice enough to give it to the current now. Is that why its so important to give because when you can give to other people and take on a overall giving attitude you will tent to give yourself things in the now.